I have never concedered myself a Scrooge. I loved the holidays, it was a fun time (when I was a kid and didn't have a care in the world!). Always at Christmas there was family so there was someone to talk to and run with. But now things have changed...Don't get me wrong...I'm don't want to be on anyones simpathy list but it just not the same. My brothers and sisters have their own family and well, I'm single. I can count all my friends on one hand and...well...they have families too. So I don't want to invite my pathic self to their good times. I feel bad enough so think of how I would feel standing in among THEIR families. I hate being alone but its worse when your alone in a crowd. I know they mean well but I just don't feel right being there.
It looks like we are not getting a holiday party at work for second year in a row. The current management is making it rough on planning it so I guess we won't have it. There is still one at bowling and I got Staci name. I still have no idea what to get for her. That is it for the Holiday Parties for me.
The jury is still out on the Christmas Tree going up too. I mean...when your single what is the use. It's just another thing I have to fight with the cat and dog over. I'm wondering if it is even worth it. The Christmas lights didn't go up either this year. I can't find the time to clean my house let alone put up Christmas lights. I will do the cards...I should make an effort to stay in touch with my relatives at least once a year. And I will go and wrap presents for the church (Nikki asked and I know they could use the help).
But personally, why bother? I have not husband or kids...no boyfriend or love interest to spend the holiday with...so why bother?
